Wednesday, July 22, 2009
finally this little dispute has been all cleared and i thank you for taking time to think the problem through... Its as much my problem as it is yours and i truly believe that this will help prevent alot of future misunderstandings.
In order to prevent such problems from arising again... I promise to keep an appropriate distance from you and when needed i promised to be more civilised and tolerant. Lets just stop agonizing the middle man repeatedly before she goes crazy soon. =)
2:31 AM
Indecisive...
In order to prevent such problems from arising again... I promise to keep an appropriate distance from you and when needed i promised to be more civilised and tolerant. Lets just stop agonizing the middle man repeatedly before she goes crazy soon. =)
2:31 AM
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Thursday, July 02, 2009
well.. there is one thing which i hope to clarify... I m not angry that i was told to go home... I m merely dissapointed because i was told unnecessary stuff such as the wide spread due to my coming in contact...
For example you could simply have told me... " bella do u wan to consider going home cos if u realli have it you might be spreading it to others u know..." rather than " bella do u wan to consider going home? if i get it i will spread it to my brother and the whole SAF will get it. and if u go chinatown with us the people there will also get it u know."
AND... I do not mind u being frank with me. Just that alot of times you provide me with unnecessary information that is hurting. Have you ever considered a person's feelings before you speak? Or more pointedly... Have you ever considered MY feelings before you speak? I know U always consider the feelings of someone else before you speak.. maybe that is why u never quarrel with anione else... But u NEVER did spare ani tots for my feelings... that is why we constantly fight... I can ask myself and i can honestly answer u that eversince the fight last year... I had always considered your feelings before i speak.. HAVE YOU??
Moreover kindly get your facts right... I was in contact with the person for not more than 5 minutes and most importantly... I did not even start developing any symptoms... and so how is it possible for me to spread any of my vile germs? (Any person who is in close contact (approximately 1 metre) with someone who has influenza-like symptoms (fever, sneezing, coughing, running nose, chills, muscle ache etc) is at risk of being exposed to potentially infective respiratory droplets) quoted from HPB...
10:39 PM
Indecisive...
For example you could simply have told me... " bella do u wan to consider going home cos if u realli have it you might be spreading it to others u know..." rather than " bella do u wan to consider going home? if i get it i will spread it to my brother and the whole SAF will get it. and if u go chinatown with us the people there will also get it u know."
AND... I do not mind u being frank with me. Just that alot of times you provide me with unnecessary information that is hurting. Have you ever considered a person's feelings before you speak? Or more pointedly... Have you ever considered MY feelings before you speak? I know U always consider the feelings of someone else before you speak.. maybe that is why u never quarrel with anione else... But u NEVER did spare ani tots for my feelings... that is why we constantly fight... I can ask myself and i can honestly answer u that eversince the fight last year... I had always considered your feelings before i speak.. HAVE YOU??
Moreover kindly get your facts right... I was in contact with the person for not more than 5 minutes and most importantly... I did not even start developing any symptoms... and so how is it possible for me to spread any of my vile germs? (Any person who is in close contact (approximately 1 metre) with someone who has influenza-like symptoms (fever, sneezing, coughing, running nose, chills, muscle ache etc) is at risk of being exposed to potentially infective respiratory droplets) quoted from HPB...
10:39 PM
Indecisive...
Never have i felt this foolish before... Now all the truth are beginning to dawn on me... All the while i had never had ani importance in my so called fragile friendship... starting from the supposedly happy birthdae chalet... I tot i was doing everyone a favour by joining it together with rayna's so that they did not have to make another time out just to spend this birthdae with me. I was wrong... I should not even haf had this "celebratory" event... I'm grateful to those who stayed and for those who could not stay for reasons from one to another.. I understand n i'm sorry i could not have made a better arrangement for you. But for some who lied time after time to consider on whether to stay... I'm sorry to say... Thanks for putting up a great show. i truly believed. All the same i would like to thank all for making this lovely and unforgettable birthdae surprise for me and i appreciate all your efforts.
Down to another incident... The suspected H1N1 incident... I'm very upset that on the minds of everyone its not the safety or health of the suspected person on their minds... I got told that I might want to consider going home because I might infect them and in turn infect their families and the people around them... I'm sorry I dun mean to be a carrier.. I just happened to unknowingly say hi to someone who's family member just got tested positive. I wish to clarify that this person just received the news that her family member was just diagnosed as positive and it was not her fault. Moreover she herself was not yet proven positive...All the same, I promise to keep my distance and not spread any of my vile germs be it H1N1 or ani others to anyone. If i have inevitably passed any of my vile germs... I m sorry.
4:08 AM
Indecisive...
Down to another incident... The suspected H1N1 incident... I'm very upset that on the minds of everyone its not the safety or health of the suspected person on their minds... I got told that I might want to consider going home because I might infect them and in turn infect their families and the people around them... I'm sorry I dun mean to be a carrier.. I just happened to unknowingly say hi to someone who's family member just got tested positive. I wish to clarify that this person just received the news that her family member was just diagnosed as positive and it was not her fault. Moreover she herself was not yet proven positive...All the same, I promise to keep my distance and not spread any of my vile germs be it H1N1 or ani others to anyone. If i have inevitably passed any of my vile germs... I m sorry.
4:08 AM
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Thursday, June 11, 2009
been reflecting on my life for the past year till todae and felt that i miss last year loads... Wanna know y? follow me through a time zone n i'll tell u significant footsteps tat i've walked for the past year... =)
1. Finished my last polytechnic papers in around mid february... [miss those days when I sat outside the LTs doing last minute chionging with my princesses]
2. Joined YF session for the first time in march... [In the days to follow, it left a really big difference in my life... This is my biggest step into buddhism full time as well as another step closer to improving my relationship with my sister... Also via this I've known many people from all walks of life whom I believe has changed my life for the better and will continue to make it better with all their advices.. =) ]
3. Officially graduated from polytechnic and was became a part of the society workforce... =)
4. Did my first community service at Mun Fut Tong (Duno how to spell) and trully enjoyed it... It was the first community service that i did willingly without being forced to do it by the school... =) and it was here that i began to gain deeper understanding with 2 members of my carebears... (one of them is dar dar... and the other is our brother wi)
5. Participated in MY first outdoors vesak celebration @ Orchard in May 2008... Here started the formation of the carebears with a veri simple common interest.. we were interested in cartoons tat we had watched during our childhood and we loved to sing... =) Members of carebears??? starting from chronological age... hehe...
i. Witoyo
ii. Lilis
iii. Eric
iv. Weili
v. Me.....
6. In the subsequent months to come... I've gained alot of knowledge including that of the Dharma, and everything else.. most importantly i began to understand myself more, knowing what i really wanted to do and what i really dislike.. I began to have my own opinions and not a 跟屁虫...
**I love the days when i got together with my carebears and went to the nursing home in rochor almost monthly to entertain them and bring laughter into their mundane life... but ever since last december onwards.. all of us stopped doing so... and Y is htat??? Could it be we were realli very busy with our daily lives that we could not even spare simply just a few hours to bring a smile into their lives? or could we simply just be too inconsistent and were bored of this?? I realli miss those days when we realli did put in jus a effort and time to bring a big big smile to the faces of these old folks... or m i simply being too attached to this happiness of doing good??** I reali miss those days when we jus sit down and sing together just for the joy of it**
5:53 AM
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1. Finished my last polytechnic papers in around mid february... [miss those days when I sat outside the LTs doing last minute chionging with my princesses]
2. Joined YF session for the first time in march... [In the days to follow, it left a really big difference in my life... This is my biggest step into buddhism full time as well as another step closer to improving my relationship with my sister... Also via this I've known many people from all walks of life whom I believe has changed my life for the better and will continue to make it better with all their advices.. =) ]
3. Officially graduated from polytechnic and was became a part of the society workforce... =)
4. Did my first community service at Mun Fut Tong (Duno how to spell) and trully enjoyed it... It was the first community service that i did willingly without being forced to do it by the school... =) and it was here that i began to gain deeper understanding with 2 members of my carebears... (one of them is dar dar... and the other is our brother wi)
5. Participated in MY first outdoors vesak celebration @ Orchard in May 2008... Here started the formation of the carebears with a veri simple common interest.. we were interested in cartoons tat we had watched during our childhood and we loved to sing... =) Members of carebears??? starting from chronological age... hehe...
i. Witoyo
ii. Lilis
iii. Eric
iv. Weili
v. Me.....
6. In the subsequent months to come... I've gained alot of knowledge including that of the Dharma, and everything else.. most importantly i began to understand myself more, knowing what i really wanted to do and what i really dislike.. I began to have my own opinions and not a 跟屁虫...
**I love the days when i got together with my carebears and went to the nursing home in rochor almost monthly to entertain them and bring laughter into their mundane life... but ever since last december onwards.. all of us stopped doing so... and Y is htat??? Could it be we were realli very busy with our daily lives that we could not even spare simply just a few hours to bring a smile into their lives? or could we simply just be too inconsistent and were bored of this?? I realli miss those days when we realli did put in jus a effort and time to bring a big big smile to the faces of these old folks... or m i simply being too attached to this happiness of doing good??** I reali miss those days when we jus sit down and sing together just for the joy of it**
5:53 AM
Indecisive...
Friday, June 05, 2009
i m amazed at how careless and stupid i can get.... I actually enrolled for the wrong course and stupidly paid for it without realising tat it was the wrong course.... SHOOTS!!!
6:07 AM
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6:07 AM
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Saturday, May 16, 2009
was wondering after lesson by chuan guan shifu on wednesdae. Topic of the day was marriage...
He was mentioning about rape IN marriage. He further went on to discuss whether buddhism really is against marriage?
Well... Buddhism does not support or discourage anyone from marriage. But buddhism encourages all to consider thoroughly before entering into marriage... There are many many things which i believe modern day people do not consider before entering the graveyard of marriage... First of... When they are deeply in love, they failed to recognise that after marriage... there is a need to support the other half in monetary terms... some ladies nowadays believe that as long as there is love... they would be able to survive and they are willing to stick through thick and thin with the man that they love despite them being lowly paid... however, once honeymoon period for the marriage is over and they have to start facing life as it is... they realise that things are no longer as nice as wat they had visualised... married life isn't is as beautiful as they thought it would be... they start fighting... Of course not forgetting... with marriage life comes another package... SEX... inevitably.. people tend to think it is perfectly to think of sex in a marriage... however... after all the quarrels that occur aftr some time.. ladies tend to.... well.... shun away the other half... this is the time when troubles start to brew... some desperado would start to "force" themselves on the other half... thus resulting in the problem... RAPE IN MARRIAGE...
However... think of it this way... we were all in breed with the idea that sex and marriage comes as a package... once u r married... you are entitled to "sleeping" with the other half... so how should the court rule when the woman is just no longer INTERESTED in the deed? it cannot be totally considered raping right? afterall they are still lawfully wedded and .......
after all this... i still think we should consider whether we are IN LOVE or simply just BEING IN LOVE? are we loving the other half wholeheartedly? Do we consider their positions no matter what we do? Do we realli love them in the sense that we are willing to sacrifice our personal gains for them? or are we simply jus being in love? we are loving the feeling of being loved? are we simply jus being realli happi with being loved by the other person... are we in love with the way the other half thinks of u no matter wad he/she does? tat u are always in 1st position when something needs to be done?
Go Figure....
9:52 PM
Indecisive...
He was mentioning about rape IN marriage. He further went on to discuss whether buddhism really is against marriage?
Well... Buddhism does not support or discourage anyone from marriage. But buddhism encourages all to consider thoroughly before entering into marriage... There are many many things which i believe modern day people do not consider before entering the graveyard of marriage... First of... When they are deeply in love, they failed to recognise that after marriage... there is a need to support the other half in monetary terms... some ladies nowadays believe that as long as there is love... they would be able to survive and they are willing to stick through thick and thin with the man that they love despite them being lowly paid... however, once honeymoon period for the marriage is over and they have to start facing life as it is... they realise that things are no longer as nice as wat they had visualised... married life isn't is as beautiful as they thought it would be... they start fighting... Of course not forgetting... with marriage life comes another package... SEX... inevitably.. people tend to think it is perfectly to think of sex in a marriage... however... after all the quarrels that occur aftr some time.. ladies tend to.... well.... shun away the other half... this is the time when troubles start to brew... some desperado would start to "force" themselves on the other half... thus resulting in the problem... RAPE IN MARRIAGE...
However... think of it this way... we were all in breed with the idea that sex and marriage comes as a package... once u r married... you are entitled to "sleeping" with the other half... so how should the court rule when the woman is just no longer INTERESTED in the deed? it cannot be totally considered raping right? afterall they are still lawfully wedded and .......
after all this... i still think we should consider whether we are IN LOVE or simply just BEING IN LOVE? are we loving the other half wholeheartedly? Do we consider their positions no matter what we do? Do we realli love them in the sense that we are willing to sacrifice our personal gains for them? or are we simply jus being in love? we are loving the feeling of being loved? are we simply jus being realli happi with being loved by the other person... are we in love with the way the other half thinks of u no matter wad he/she does? tat u are always in 1st position when something needs to be done?
Go Figure....
9:52 PM
Indecisive...
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
m here to rant and rave again....
lets start with the ranting first shall we? well... feeling cheated.. sobx. thought the girls wanted to watch 17 again together.. so i did not watch it with dar on Sunday and watched Taken instead. Who knew... Both of them already watched it one with her boyfriend and the other with her friends... sobx... now even eric has gone to watch it alone... i've no one to watch it with... sobx.... looks like i gotta skip the movie now... though eileen was being very sweet and said or rather insisted that she wanted to watch it again... but... I dun wanna make her waste $$ and watch a movie twice... so looks like i'm gonna give this movie a miss.. SOBX... ** note to self.. shall not believe everything they say completely... FEELING XTREMELY CHEATED!!! sobx..
Lets rave now... Taken was a relatively nice movie despite all the violent killings.. but i like the show cos the main lead (FATHER) who was an ex-government security protector killed loads of bad guys with the simple goal: to save his 17 year old daughter from on abductors who sold her to some amazingly rich guys as a prostitute.. Happy ending for the movie.. =)
Aniwae.. people... go down to Orchard this weekend... Its Vesak @ Orchard 2009!!! May is coming and it is the significant month for buddhists... =) Come if you have the time.. Take a little stroll along the Ngee Ann City Openspace area... C ya there!! ^.^
5:58 AM
Indecisive...
lets start with the ranting first shall we? well... feeling cheated.. sobx. thought the girls wanted to watch 17 again together.. so i did not watch it with dar on Sunday and watched Taken instead. Who knew... Both of them already watched it one with her boyfriend and the other with her friends... sobx... now even eric has gone to watch it alone... i've no one to watch it with... sobx.... looks like i gotta skip the movie now... though eileen was being very sweet and said or rather insisted that she wanted to watch it again... but... I dun wanna make her waste $$ and watch a movie twice... so looks like i'm gonna give this movie a miss.. SOBX... ** note to self.. shall not believe everything they say completely... FEELING XTREMELY CHEATED!!! sobx..
Lets rave now... Taken was a relatively nice movie despite all the violent killings.. but i like the show cos the main lead (FATHER) who was an ex-government security protector killed loads of bad guys with the simple goal: to save his 17 year old daughter from on abductors who sold her to some amazingly rich guys as a prostitute.. Happy ending for the movie.. =)
Aniwae.. people... go down to Orchard this weekend... Its Vesak @ Orchard 2009!!! May is coming and it is the significant month for buddhists... =) Come if you have the time.. Take a little stroll along the Ngee Ann City Openspace area... C ya there!! ^.^
5:58 AM
Indecisive...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
its 24th of march 2009 and i'm down with the bugs again.... started having sorethroat every morning i wake up since a few days back... den over the weekends due to loneliness and all alone at home... the buggy came in full blown and hit me down on sundae... but.. i still braved to work on mondae n managed to last the whole day... WOOTS n KUDOS for my bravery ppl.. hehe. den i went to c the doctor on monday nite n managed to convince him to give me MC... so.. here i m slacking at home the whole day... relatively good rest i had... woke up at 9+ to call back office and called again at almost 10 cos bee said sister haven reach office but when i called later on.. erica say sister oso on leave.. hahahahaha...
well nvm. i ate a good long breakfast and swallowed my medicines down... den i started shivering badly cos of the damned ventolin... so back to bed i went and slept all the way to 2pm... den read story book all the way till 4+ and started to cook something for dinner den eat finish now here i m online n bugging everi living person.. wahaha... ciao back to buggin the daylights or rather nightlights out of my friends online.. =)
6:17 AM
Indecisive...
well nvm. i ate a good long breakfast and swallowed my medicines down... den i started shivering badly cos of the damned ventolin... so back to bed i went and slept all the way to 2pm... den read story book all the way till 4+ and started to cook something for dinner den eat finish now here i m online n bugging everi living person.. wahaha... ciao back to buggin the daylights or rather nightlights out of my friends online.. =)
6:17 AM
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